closer to fine

I know I write in nauseam on this blog about Netflix but it has CHANGED my life. I grew up watching 80s tv talk shows (Hi Dini Petty and Sally Jessy Raphael!), sitcoms (Cheers – best theme song, 9 to 5, The Cosby Show, The Facts of Life, Different Strokes, Family Ties, Who’s the Boss, Happy Days, Growing Pains, Welcome Back Kotter, Gilligan’s Island, Night Court, A Different Word, Katie and Allie, Designing Women), dramas (Fantasy Island, The Love Boat, Little House on the Prairie, Dallas), cop shows (Charlie’s Angels, CHiPs, The A-Team, 21 Jump Street, Hart-to-Hart, Hill Street Blues, Magnum P.I., Miami Vice, Moonlighting, Remington Steel, Murder She Wrote), and another weird super hero show – The greatest American Hero. I also was a regular voyeur of a daytime soap called The Young and the Restless. I haven’t watched Y&R for maybe 20 years, but if I turned it on now I’m sure I could get caught up within a week!

I think I’ve devoted much (too much) of my time to commercials and now I’m done with them. Remember I told you I’ve become more strategic with my time, like shopping at Costco before the store is supposed to be open? Well now I apply this philosophy to all areas of my life which includes watching tv, reading books, shopping, friendship, extracurricular activities and so on. For example, if I’m not into a book by page 100, I stop. Time is precious so why waste it on things you don’t like or like to do, case in point ‘commercials’. You know I was thinking…. that Netflix could help in solving the world problems. Let me explain, I think it could also bring peace and a distraction to evil, like those egotistical heads of states with their finger messaging the ‘button’ or building secret weapons that could destroy our somewhat peaceful world. Especially the Canadian show called ‘Departures’. If you want to travel the world through the lens of three super chill, respectful, curious guys, one being behind the camera, the other two in front – you should watch a couple of episodes. The cinematography is astonishing, and you feel like you’re traveling with them. They’re not obnoxious for 20 something year olds either – which is what you would normally associate with younger people traveling around the world. Yes, they do party and have fun, but it’s awesome and I love them. This is a show I would label as Zen, and if I’m feeling anxious at all… I just watch an episode which always makes me instantaneously calmer. I just read somewhere that they will be releasing a third season on Netflix and I couldn’t be happier. I’m telling you the new way of watching tv series, movies, whatever on either your television, laptop, mini-ipad, tablet, iphone (my favourite) etc…’binge’ watching is going to change the world. When I get anxious or need some quiet alone time, I simply plug my headphones into my iphone and watch 96 episodes of Dexter. Btw, great show. Anyone can do it. So to all the smart people huddled in secret underground boardrooms trying to solve all the wars around the world or enhance peace keeping efforts – give the enemy a cheap subscription to Netflix, and they’ll leave us alone. Oh and people won’t give a crap about $$$ either, only uninterrupted wifi and take out. Yay 2015! I’m being serious. It may also help marriages, or cause higher rates of divorce, either way you can’t fight it – it IS happening.

I recently wrote that I would be going back to the beginning of my story so that I could tell it chronologically. I also mentioned that the day I sat down with my 1st oncologist who delivered my diagnosis (results of my biopsy, mri, and mammograms), and who would also be my surgeon had explained that I would have 3 other oncologist, so a total of 4 main doctors would be part of ‘Save Simone’. This conversation was on November 21, 2013. I would then have initial consults with all four of them over the next few weeks that followed. Sort of like a meet and greets minus the name tags, cheese platters and cold dry martini’s. With all four docs weighing in and giving their ‘go ahead’ rubber stamp to my ever growing file, I had the double mastectomy on December 18, 2014.

During my four week hiatus before starting chemotherapy (poison) in late January 2014 I would recover, celebrate Christmas, buy wigs, cut my hair to an inch short, and last but not least attend ‘chemo school’. Yes, you read that right, it’s called and I’m quoting the title ‘Chemotherapy and You’ aka chemo – 101. I really resisted this next step because I resist any type of formal training…I usually find these types of information sessions un-useful. It’s usually a lot of blah blah blah, and I walk out of the room thinking I could have read an email that summarized the info. But I thought, ok, I’ll do this. You never know what you’re going to learn or who you’re going to meet. Well a few things happen while attending chemo school. For one, when I showed up and walked in to a large conference room I saw that it was going to be a private one-on-one session. The room was fairly large with a boardroom style set-up, including a projector and a screen. When the instructor stepped into the room he immediately took note of the only A+ student (me) sitting obediently waiting for the class to begin. He was an older gentlemen whose wife had been through cancer treatments and wanted to ‘pay it forward’ by volunteering in the cancer program in a variety of roles. God bless him. As it turned out, I learnt a tremendous amount and was grateful that I had pushed my fears away and decided to attend. I’m a rebel at heart but sometimes you have to just trust in the system and find value in things you NEVER wanted to be a part of, even if it involves instruction.

A good friend of mine told me that she didn’t want me to join any support groups. When I asked her ‘why’, she said ‘I don’t want you to meet anyone that may die’…she added ‘I think it would be very sad and hard on you’. I had never thought of it in that way before. I still haven’t gone to group sessions, not because of this but because I already have so many appointments to keep up with. Adding support groups to my schedule seems overwhelming at this point. I’m not completely against it, I’m just not there yet. To be honest, I get the impression that I would be the youngest one there?!?

I thought I share a couple more pictures I took from my new favourite place – Brooklyn, NY…

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